Domesticating Ari

Happy Halloween

I wish I took a picture of my snow white before she left for school but I didn't. She looked so pretty. Pretty scares me. She's 5 and should be cute. But no, she was stunning. So many comments. I wish she's stay small sometimes forever. I will take pics of my little woman before she heads out tonight. T-Rex will also be making his appearance.

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Settling in...

Last night was the first night where I actually got to sit and watch TV in the living room. I just got cable yesterday mind you but it was the sitting part I enjoyed. It felt like home. Today Emma goes to another new school. It's across the street and it's just way to convienent not to do it. Especially when it gets icy and if we get snow, I do not like to drive in it. This way I walk year round.

Josh is already out of preschool due to lack of funds so finding things to keep him busy isn't so bad but when the two of them are together, things get a little loud. I hope my school work gets done soon as I am totally far behind and need alot of it finished.

Wish me luck.

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Trying to show you pictures of my new house...

A lil update

What feels like months for me has only been 2 weeks in reality so bear with the complaining. As you know my neighbours from hell ran us out from them being insanely violent. No matter what I did, nothing happened to them. I was promised the world and in the end they never even evicted them. I even called the police in dispair but they could do nothing.

So we moved in with James parents. You know that story, kids in a glass house in the land of don't touch. It was HELL. I had stress from day one trying to keep my unkeepable kids quiet and not breaking things. Mornings off to school were tough.

I got Emma and Josh enrolled in new schools. The 2nd for Emma and the 1st time for Josh. Emma adapted as if nothing happened. But my heart broke when I had to send her the 1st day with no jacket or backpack. I felt totally poor and dead. Josh on the other hand being the 1st time he was in preschool had a difficult time with me leaving. But I had so much shit to do I left him there anyways and he cried it out. I have since had to un-enroll him as I can no longer afford that luxury. And of course today he was happy as a clam when I left him...

I had to quit my job to do many factors. Daycare being the biggest. 2 kids pick-up and drop-off from school is $800/month. That would leave me $200/month left over... Also going bankrupt, the more you make, the more you pay to do it.

So that leaves me here. In my new house near nothing I have ever been near. I am coming from a 3 bedroom townhouse with a 10x10 back yard ( 90% of it deck) to a 6 bedroom house on 2.5 acres. I'd love to brag about all the pluses here but I have to rent and go bankrupt in order to live here so I will keep it at a minimum. I have plenty of space and my animals are finally being animals. The best part is , my neighbours are 2.5 acres away...

I'm Selling my house..

On Thursday night we decided once and for all to put this hell house up for sale and we did it. Called an agent that night and as she left she put a for sale sign up. I feel very bad for the poor souls who will buy this place but on the same hand, I just want to get the hell out of here. So this weekend in between Turkey dinners I have been painting and cleaning. Not a big fan of painting but we have/had some rooms that need to be a neutral tone. For instance Emmas room, Josh's old room was a nice blue. Nice for me but not for potential buyers. So beige it went. And Josh's room, which was Emmas room, is still cotton candy pink. I love the pink so I just tidied up the moulding and hopefully someone can work with it. If not, beige it goes too.

Pray we sell this place asap. We neeeeeed to get out of here before we lose our minds. We will be going back to renting so I am not to fond of that but at least we will be debt free.

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Do you ever wonder?

When people are going to give a shit about you? I do. I spend so much of my life helping others out, not because I have to but because I want to, but when the time comes that I need something back... It's not here. After the accident yesterday all I wanted to do was talk about it. No matter who I tried to, they had something far worse that had to be dealt with. So not only was I left with no closure on the accident, but I had no one to talk to. As I was trying to go to sleep last night everything was replaying through my mind and I was bombarded with questions."is she ok?", "did she have any internal injuries?" "was it her blood or mine on my clothes?" So many questions, also the biggest thing was what if it was me? Hard not to think about when you are one car behind this.

Besides that, I think we are selling our house. We have lived in this townhouse for 3.5 years and it has been hell since the day we moved in. We have a rental unit beside us and ever tenant that moves in, is worse. We manage to force them all out, but their replacements, are never any better. It's like living next to a homeless shelter. For 6 months there was no power to the unit and the living conditions got progressively worse. It was and still is disgusting even knowing there is just a wall separating us. If we sell, we can come out clear. Paying back our mortgage and loans yet have nothing for a down payment. So Is it worth it? My kids cannot play at the park 5 feet from my front door due to the loser kids that are always there, we don't even send our daughter to school in the district as they have a horrible reputation. There is no point in hanging onto a house for equity, when you can stand nothing around you.

I am completely overwhelmed right now.

I helped save a life...

Or I'd like to think I was a help in it. I was driving to work this morning and approaching a stop sign. There was a van in front of me and it stopped and then proceeded to go, another truck coming a different way did not stop, and smashed into her. It send her flipping through the air and she landed on her roof. The truck was fine. I pulled my car over after the accident scene and ran to her van. She had un done her seatbelt and I made sure she was ok and grabbed hold of her. I pulled her out of the van through a blasted out window and moved her to safety. Since she was already trying to get out, and in a very unsafe position all I could do was help her. She appeared to be ok. The car was still running and the other window was about to shatter while i was pulling her out( I had my back turned to it just in case). I was a little nervous. I managed to get a few minor cuts from allthe glass but we all know it oculd have been worse, I could have been her.

Buuuut. She's in good hands, I had to leave once the ambulance got there as I was late for work as it was..... not bad for a little early morning excitememt eh?

Egads, I am so busy

I am having such a hard time finding time to do school work. My English gets done but my Data Management and my CAPP does not. Having time to sit and work is tough because it usually comes after the kids are in bed finally and i am so tired that it's the last thing I want to do. I managed to get one assignment done here at work today but it was small. I want so much more..

Send me get em done vibes please.